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With
you
Part
11: Shattered dreams
By:
Sano
Standard
YYH disclaimer
Note:
Waaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!! A virus got into the computer and erased everything!!
Aaaaaaargh!! Stupid virus! Ruining everything!! *Bangs her head on the table.
HARD* All my precious collections…all the fics I loved…the pics that Leni-chan
and Jedi-san sent me…all gone!! *Waterfall of tears* I even lost this fic that
I’m writing…*sob* Life is sooooo cruel!!! I’ll just relieve all my stress into
this fic. *Sniff* maybe I can be a little evil. Good thing I posted some of my
fics on FF.net. This part is dedicated to Flame coz this person is the one who
encourages me to write with all her nice words. Arigato!! *Takes in deep breath*
Waaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!
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Kurama
couldn’t believe it!! Hiei was kissing him!! All thoughts of Maya left his mind
when Hiei began tracing his spine with his fingers. If he weren’t sitting on
the grass his knees would’ve buckled already.
Hiei
couldn’t think coherently, he was just concentrating on kissing this beautiful
creature in his arms. He wanted to stay this way forever with Kurama in his
arms, but underlying all that pleasure was a feeling of dread, like something
bad was going to happen. He ignored it and pulled the kitsune closer, the youko
almost sitting on his lap.
Kurama
moaned softly, they’re hearts beating together. He felt himself being eased
onto the grass when he heard his mother’s voice before she got into the car
that would take her life. “I want you to have lots of children with a pretty
woman, all right Shuu-chan…” His emerald eyes shot open and he realized what he
was doing.
With
super-human effort, Kurama pushed himself away from Hiei. His breathing heavy,
and he noted that Hiei too was panting heavily.
“Kurama,
why? Is so-“
“Why
did you come back, Hiei?” Kurama asked firmly. Somehow, he needed to know.
Everything seemed confusing; he could here his mother’s voice. But he could
hear his sad sobs every night when Hiei left him three years ago. He was going
to decide what to do: His happiness or his mother’s.
Hiei
opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. What is this? A moment ago, he
and Kurama were kissing passionately. And now, the kitsune was demanding an
answer. His eyes locked with Kurama’s, he searched them for anything that would
decipher what was going on. But all that stared back at him was impassiveness.
“Well,
Hiei? Why?” Kurama repeated as he stood up.
“What
are you talking about, fox?” Hiei asked as he followed the kitsune. “I came
back for you…”
Kurama
chuckled evilly. “No you didn’t, Hiei.” His green eyes becoming hard.
“Nani?”
“I
said. You didn’t come back for me.”
Hiei
approached the kitsune. “How can you say that? I came ba-“
“Why,
Hiei? Is it because you love me, huh Hiei? Then why don’t you say it?” Kurama
demanded.
Hiei
stared back at the youko, how could he say it? He wasn’t ready. But if he
didn’t say it, he might lose Kurama forever.
Kurama
scrutinized the koorime for any sign of movement, but there was none. His heart
sank. It had taken too long. He hid his sadness and spoke, with as much cruelty
he could muster at the moment, which was none by the way. “Hah! This is so like
you, Hiei. I bet you knew about me getting married and you just had to come
back here so you could destroy my life again, haven’t you?”
“Kurama,
what is th-”?
“You
know that I’m happy with my life and you just couldn’t live with, am I right,
Hiei? You can’t live with the fact that I’m happy and that your not! You want
to go on with your life knowing that you destroyed mine!!” Kurama was shouting
now. Hiei grabbed the kitsune around the shoulders and forced him to look into
his eyes.
“I
came back for you, Kurama. I care about you…I was…dying without you…” Hiei
confessed softly, hoping that his words would melt Kurama’s heart.
All
the anger seeped put of Kurama’s body and replaced it with hurt and sadness.
“Why didn’t you tell me all of this three years ago, Hiei?” Kurama whispered
miserably.
Hiei
sighed. “Because…I was scared then. I-I didn’t know how to react…I’m sorry,
fox.”
Kurama
stared at Hiei’s handsome face, all he wanted to do was just fall into Hiei’s
arms and forget about everything. But…”I can’t.” Kurama said and removed Hiei’s
hands from his shoulders. He turned his back to the Koorime and walked away
from him.
“Why?
Why can’t you?” Hiei asked. There was a moment of silence, the only sounds were
the whispers of the wind and they’re heavy breathing. Suddenly, Kurama whirled
around to face him, his beautiful green eyes brimming with tears.
“Because…Because
I made a promise to my mom. That I would marry a nice girl and have
children…I-I can’t break that promise Hiei. And Maya loves me and were getting
married…I’m sorry, Hiei…but I can’t…” He turned to run away if only Hiei didn’t
have the ability to run fast and the koorime was suddenly in front of him.
The
fire demon stared at him square in the eye. “You love that ningen mother of
yours too much, Kurama. You never make yourself be happy, you always put her
first.”
“If
it weren’t for her, I’m not here right now. I would have been dead. I stole the
body of her child, Hiei. I have to repay her for that.” Kurama said firmly.
“What
about Maya? Do you love her?”
Kurama
was speechless, he never knew that Hiei would ask him this and he wasn’t
prepared. “I…” He stopped. “I…” Somehow, it broke his heart to utter those
words in front of Hiei. “I…”
“Say
it, Kurama! Say that you love her!!” Hiei yelled. Kurama stayed quiet and Hiei
couldn’t help but snort. “You don’t love her, fox. How can you spend your life
with someone you know you don’t love?”
Kurama
wanted to defend himself, but he couldn’t. Because he knew what Hiei was saying
is true. Pain constricted in his chest. He wanted this pain to go away! He
didn’t know what he’d follow: His heart or his pride. He teared his eyes away
from the youkai’s and ran away from the clearing, leaving a stunned and
speechless Hiei behind him.
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End of Part eleven