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With
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Part
10: Doubts
Standard
YYH disclaimer
Note:
The last part was crap so I thought I could make up in this one. ^_^ I love
writing so much!!
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Hiei’s crimson eyes shot open
as a familiar brush of ki tickled his senses. He sat up from the branch he was
sleeping in and spread out his youki.
It
was no mistake; he just felt Kurama’s ki. He found the source and ran eagerly
after it. This was his chance, to tell the kitsune how he felt. To hell if he
had a fiancée. He just wanted to know what Kurama felt for him. (Trust Hiei to
not to care)
Kurama’s ki stopped moving and
Hiei stopped as well, he masked his ki so as not to be detected by the clever
fox. He crouched low on a branch and watched the beautiful creature walk over
to a cherry tree, his hair swaying against the wind and falling around his
shoulders in graceful waves.
He
watched with hungry eyes as the kitsune sat down on the grass under the tree
and hug his knees to his chest. Hiei continued to stare for a few moments then
his eyebrows rose when his keen hearing picked up a sound that almost broke his
heart.
The
fox was crying, his body racking with painful sobs. Hiei couldn’t bear to see
Kurama cry. Before he could stop himself, he jumped off the tree and landed a
few feet from the redhead.
He
took slow tentative steps toward the fox and stopped. What if Kurama gets mad?
Am I invading his privacy? Hiei asked himself. No. Kurama needs a friend right
now…he was always there for you before…its time to return the favor.
He
cleared his throat nervously and took a deep breath. He needed to calm himself
or else he would just run away again. Not now, not ever. “Why are you so sad,
kitsune?” He asked.
The
redhead’s body stiffened at the sound of his voice. Hiei’s mind filled with
doubt and was starting to walk away when the fox turned around to face him.
Hiei raised his eyes to meet with Kurama’s.
Then,
he noticed that Kurama’s face was tearstained. He took another step and spoke.
“You’re crying, fox.”
“No,
I’m not.” Kurama mumbled before turning his back to him. Hiei cocked his head
to the side and stared curiously at Kurama. “You can’t fool me. I know you.”
“Maybe
you never knew me at all…” Kurama stated quietly, one of his hands playing with
blades of grass.
Hiei
ignored the twinge of hurt that Kurama’s words created and padded over to the
kitsune. He hesitated for a moment and finally sat down beside the youko on the
grass. “I’m sorry about Shiori…” He trailed off. “I never knew…what happened to
her until now…” Actually, the thought just hit him and he just blurted it out.
He grew quiet, waiting for any reaction.
Kurama
remained silent then spoke. “Arigato…” He whispered softly. “I never really
knew how important she was to me until now…”
“She
was so important to you, you even stole the mirror of utter dark for her. You
wanted to sacrifice your life for her…”
Kurama
snapped his gaze to Hiei. Did Hiei just sound…wistful? The fire demon turned to
him and they’re eyes locked. Kurama bit the inside of his cheek, trying to
contain his willpower not to jump him.
Hiei
stared at the most beautiful creature in all of the three worlds; life would be
so unbearable without him. Maya was lucky, she found someone who would
sacrifice everything for her. He turned his gaze down. Suddenly shy.
“If-If
you need a-a-a shoulder…to cry on…you can cry one mine.” Hiei stuttered
nervously.
Kurama
stared at Hiei, baffled at his words. Hiei was…Hiei was actually offering to
comfort him? This must be a dream, don’t ever wake me up if it is. He
prayed silently.
“I
remember when we first met…you were so young then, and Maya was with you too.
She’s grown up into such a pretty woman ne? You were so nosy then, you were
forcing me to tell you about Yukina…” Hiei continued the tale of how they met
and Kurama gaped at him. This wasn’t like Hiei at all! He was saying so many
words in a row. Maybe three years without seeing him mellowed the fire demon.
Suddenly,
Kurama started crying. He didn’t know why, he just did. His heart felt like it
was breaking into shards. He just couldn’t stop. Strong, muscular arms enveloped
him in its warmth and pressed him to a muscled chest.
Hiei’s
scent floated all around him and it felt like he was in a dream; he never
wanted it to stop. He continued crying; crying because he knew Hiei didn’t love
him. This was just concern for him.
Kurama
wriggled in Hiei’s arms but the youkai held him tight. Kurama stopped moving
and just let the tears flow. He poured out his heart to Hiei, feeling all the
sadness in his heart lessening with each stroke of Hiei’s hand on his back.
Kurama
looked up at the same time as Hiei’s and they’re eyes locked. “Don’t cry, fox…”
Hiei said, his voice barely above a whisper.
They
continued staring at each other, each daring the other to tear his gaze away.
Hiei took in Kurama’s beautiful face. The moonlight streamed over them, casting
them little warmth in spite of its bright light.
His
hand moved and caressed Kurama’s tear-stained cheek softly. “You’re so
beautiful…” He murmured.
Kurama’s
emerald eyes widened in shock, his mind hazy to process an answer, he suddenly
had the impulse to kiss Hiei, but he was too shocked to do so. Think about
Maya! Think about Maya! His mind screamed at him.
He
closed his eyes, wanting to move away from Hiei. He forced himself to think of
Maya. Then, his eyes flew open when he felt the soft pressure of Hiei’s lips
against his.
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End
of Part ten