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While you were sleeping
By: Sano
Disclaimer: Gensomaden Saiyuki belongs to Kazuya Minekura. I am
not making any money out of this, this is just the product of my yaoi infused
mind and the purpose of this is to entertain yaoi lovers out there. So don’t
sue me, onegai?
Note:
This fic is shounen ai. Since people requested another Saiyuki fic here it is.
Hope ya’ll like it! This is SanzoxHakkai by the way.
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My eyes snap open and I stare up at the ceiling. The moonlight streaming
through the window and casting shadows in the room.
I turn my gaze to another bed beside mine. The person currently
occupying it buried in blankets, his brown hair was the only part of him to be
seen. I sit up and lean against the headboard to see the face of the object of
my thoughts more clearly.
Hakkai was sleeping soundly, his chest rising up and down. I
cocked my head to the side, my blonde hair following the laws of gravity and
covering my vision partially.
You know, I always ask myself. Why do you have to be so damn
beautiful? A goddess wouldn’t compare to you.
I wonder if you know that I always watch you sleep? If you do,
you’re not doing anything about it for the past year.
Watching you sleep was almost like a hobby for me. Every night
that we would stay in an inn, I would always wake up in the middle of the night
and watch you sleep. Watching how you breathe deeply, how you smile softly in
the midst of a dream.
My amethyst eyes always long to see you, they hunger to see your
innocent beauty. But not only my eyes, all of me, my body, my heart, even my
soul longs for you, a day without seeing you, your mouth curved up into a
charming smile, kills a part of me that I never knew existed.
An amused glint lit up my eyes. You’d probably laugh if I told
you how I feel. You’d think that a corrupt monk was head over heels in love
with you. But what if I did? How would you react? Will you get mad? Be happy
and kiss me? Or be disgusted with me?
I shudder at the mere thought of you regarding me in disgust. I
would certainly die if that happens.
Sometimes I wonder if you have feelings for me that you would
want to be with me as much as I want to be with you.
I shook
my blonde head and took the pack of cigarettes that I left on the bedside table.
I flipped open my lighter and lit the cigarette. I took in a drag and the smoke
washed over me like a tidal wave, calming me instantly.
What would it feel like to kiss you? To feel your body pressed
against mine? To hear your heart beating in the same rhythm mine does?
I shook off the forbidden image that formed in my mind and
turned my gaze to you again. You’re smiling again, your pink lips curved in
happiness.
Who are you dreaming about? Is it Kana? Or Yaone? You once told
me that you have feelings for her, but you never specified what kind of
feelings they were.
Or is it I?
I laugh, a sound alien to me. You’re the only one who manages to
make me laugh, however rare those moments were. I’m glad; it means that I’m not
an unemotional bastard after all.
The sun was peeking over the horizon; I didn’t notice how fast
time flew. I crushed the cigarette but on an ashtray beside the pack of
cigarettes and lie down on my bed. I roll over and see you still soundly
asleep.
Maybe someday I will tell you what I always think about when I
watch you sleep. I snort. That will be the day when Goku is the smartest person
alive.
Till then Hakkai, I’ll watch you sleep.
^Owari^
October 26, 2002